I have wondered during the past year how much sleep a body can have. I wondered this because I have slept so much, yet not felt like it has been enough! I feel as if I could close my eyes and dream on forever.
Mostly I believe that my body had shut down because I have carried so much on my shoulders; both mentally, emotionally and then physically, when my body gave in to the emotional aspect and mental strains of having to run everything like clockwork.
This 'trauma' ended up manifesting in my body chemically through stress until it turned into a physical disability- albeit temporary, a disability it was!
You see even when you have healed from the past painful hurts and traumas, you can still experience a new depth of pain and trauma which is on a different level to that which you had previously dealt with. In my case this proved to be true.
However, I really didn't understand the pain running a business can actually bring before I dived blindly and headfirst right in, (though pain signifies growth)!
I was so naive! I believed that those who were in a better position than me financially would support me. I believed in friends and family being the first to come running through my doors and help me build a solid foundation!
I soon learned a tough lesson!